Thursday, July 29, 2010

Inspiration...or something like that

Well here I am...almost 6 months since my last post. So what brings me back? The fact that I need to vent. Sometimes writing it down helps. I hate that I don't write as much as I used to. I used to love writing short stories and poems but now I have no time whatsoever. So here I am finally with a minute or two to write down my feelings.

It's been almost a year and 10 months since I started Weight Watchers. I feel like a new person. I know I didn't put the weight on overnight and it doesn't come off overnight but it feels like it has been such a long journey. If you think about it though, I was overweight most of my life...all 25 years of it...so for it to take about 2 years to take it off, really that's not bad. I make time in my day to exercise. I watch what I eat and I've cut back on snacks, soda, and vending machines. I don't eat fast food anymore. Subway is about the only place I'll go that's kind of "fast foodish." I've lost 75 pounds and am only 5 POUNDS FROM GOAL!! You can't know how excited I am about that. However, I've been 5 pounds from goal for almost a month and am getting quite frustrated. Maybe I've become a little too comfortable and am not being as careful as I should or not exercising as much as I should, but it's become frustrating!

I'm just ready to be there. If you've ever gone through this journey, you'll know what I mean. So yesterday I made a commitment to myself...I'm going to reach goal in August. No excuses. There's really no reason I shouldn't. I am not going to splurge. I am going to eat my points, and only my points, daily. I'm going to exercise daily. It's the final push and I need to be committed at this or I'll never get there.

Frustration is part of the program and I've let it get me down before and it has me pretty upset right now since none of my hard work is showing, but it's worked so far and it's time for the final push! Goal ... here I come!