Ugh...

So I was told by someone that I haven't posted a new blog entry lately...so I should end it here right? lol...ok...I do have a few things on my mind guess I can make something up. As of next week I'll have been working full time for 2 months. That's 8 weeks of Monday through Friday 7-4 (or around there depending on what events I have at night.) So what has it been like? Tiring and trying at times but for the most part I've enjoyed it. I am also now the official overnight voicetracker at Lite...which I think is going to be good and bad to some extent. Good because I'm at the station everyday keeping my prescence up and I'm on the air everyday, which is the true test to see if I'm ready for something full time in radio. Bad though for a few reasons...when I have night meetings it's a really long day for me...I work 7-1, then have to go to the station to do the voicetracking, then come home and eat and go to whatever event I have...so I'm on the run until about 9 or 9:30 at night. It's a long day. When I work a typical 7-4 day I never feel like going back into the station after sitting at home for awhile, but there's no pressure then, I can go in as late as I want and as long as it's done it doesn't matter. Plus I love it...guess that's the bottom line :) Lately my parents have really been getting on my nerves. Usually I get along with my mom and dad just fine...but my mom always seems to find a way to get upset at me or to blame something on me. My sister's flunking out of college but something about that must be my fault...did I mention I hate being a middle child? Even after my older sister left and I became the oldest in the house...something was always blamed on me. I don't know...I just usually try to ignore it all and go about my daily business and ignore all the drama surrounding me at home. My weeks are long and drama packed lately which kind of makes me not as happy as I should be...which a few people have pointed out to me lately. Bottom line...I need a vacation. LOL. Guess that's not the real bottom line. I'm just taking it week by week right now and making it through. I keep very busy which is good because it takes my mind off other things sometimes. But anyway...here's my new post...happy now? :-)

So here we are...

So here it's March 11 and daylight savings time started 3 weeks early much to my dismay. For one I stay until midnight at the station anyway...so losing an hour of sleep is never easy for me. But this time it was even worse and I was exhausted in the morning. So came home from church and took a 2 1/2 hour nap which doesn't happen very often anymore but I was out which is what I needed I guess. So anyway, this post is going to kinda go all over the place 'cause a lot of things on my mind lately. So bare with me and enjoy I guess...lol. First a note to everyone looking to go to a movie. Definitely go see Wild Hogs!! The funniest movie I have seen in a hell of a long time!! I haven't been to a movie in a long time for a couple reasons. One...I never seem to have time. And Two...not many movies are worth $8 a person to see. But Rich and I spent the weekend together so we decided to go to a movie and we were both happy to find that Wild Hogs was definitely worth the money!! Moving on to subject number two. As I mentioned before I got to spend the weekend with Rich. *sigh* makes me spoiled when I get to do that. Not that I'm complaining about it. But then he has to get up early to go pick up his daughter and then get back home to go to work, it sucks. Of course it always sucks when he has to leave, but when I've gotten to spend a weekend with him outside of work it becomes even harder. I do get to see him Wednesday of this week though because he'll be up here working on Lite so at least I don't have to go a full week without getting to see him. And even better...Thursday is our anniversary :) hehe...yeah a year...who would have thought right? Enough said on that... Next wanted to share a poem since it's been awhile since I've done that. This one is from a few years ago. I wrote it for a church homecoming and came across it a few days ago, so let me know what you think and enjoy!! :)

Home

Home is where the fire glows

and keeps us warm at night

Home is where the friends we've made

help us feel alright

Home is where a candle burns

whenever you're away

Home is knowing you'll return

and never lose your way

Home is where the day's misfortunes

find unwelcome hosts

Home is where we learn to value

each other's feelings most

Home is where the heart beats slowly

putting us at ease

Home is where the children wanting

always first say please

Home is wehre the siblings play

and learn to share and give

Home is where the parents learn

the new role they must live

Home is where the budget stands

and fights inflation's pace

Home is where the paycheck finds

its destined resting place

Home is where our children mimic

all we do and say

Home is where we can't get angry

when we don't get our way

Home is where romances finds it

sometimes has to wait

Home is knowing other times

don't always come so late

Home is where we run for shelter

when we need it most

Home is where the air's conditioned

by the Holy Ghost

Home is like a bank account

with Internet paid each day

Home is where an early withdrawal

penalty is paid

Home is where the Lord is watching

giving us much light

Home is where Love rules supreme

forgiving when we fight

Home is where the good and bad

are shared with equal will

Home is where there's so much to give

we always get our fill

Home is where you and I

will learn and Lovve and Give

Home is where our love will last

much longer than we live

Home is not just a place with walls

where everything should fit

Home is a torch we pass along

for our children to keep lit

New Month...Not so New Point of View

So my guess is that 99.9% of people reading this have a myspace account, am I right? When did you start your myspace? Was it when the site first got off the ground? Or were you like me and only heard about it because some of your friends or co-workers started to use it and then jumped on the band wagon? Or maybe you just joined because you were bored one day. Either way, you jumped on the myspace trend. Are you measured in real life by how many friends you have on myspace? If you're not a teenager, then probably it doesn't make a difference how many friends you have on your myspace. Some of you might not know this, but many teenagers are rated "cool" and "uncool" by peers by how many friends they have on their myspace. The more friends, the "cooler" you must be. What kind of message does this send to kids? On the same line of things, kids can delete their "friends" off of myspace if they have an argument, can you delete friends in real life? Real life confrontations consist of talking things out and figuring out what can be done to improve or repair an existing friendship. Friendships are not easy, they take work by all individuals involved. Children are getting the idea that it's ok to just delete a life-long friendship because hey they have 100 more friends on myspace...well isn't that just ducky to know? I've had my share of confrontations with friends, most of the time we've worked through them and at least remained friends...a few broken ones here or there because of stupid things, but even those people that I stopped talking to for many years are still my "friends" on myspace. We even talk now. That's my reason for using myspace. I have existing real life friends on there, along with friends I went to school with and we lost touch, along with co-workers (past and present), and some family members. I won't delete friends and I won't just add anyone that sends me a friend request. I screen them...you might think this makes me paranoid...but I'd rather be paranoid then end up like some teens. Takes me to my next subject. Sexual predators know exactly where to go. Myspace. Myspace has implemented this new system where most everyone under the age of 18 has their profiles automatically made private...unless you or a "friend" of the person. Sure, it may seem like Myspace is doing its job of preventing sexual predators from gaining access to our children, what I have to say is...yeah right!! The teens add these predators as their friend after they get a friend request because after all "it's cool to have a lot of friends on myspace." Bingo...now whoever it is has full access to this teen's profile and they talk and they gain the persons trust and hey..."let's meet somewhere to get to know each other." Obviously I was a teenager once and I know the feeling some teens need to be accepted. They want a boyfriend/girlfriend, they want to feel that love, they want someone to understand and accept them, maybe they are a middle child, like me, and went through middle child syndrome and just wanted to get away from it all for a little bit. Difference with me...we never had myspace. So teens go and meet this "perfect person" and then you hear it on the news...another child either molested/kidnapped/killed because of it. That's when I shake my head and wonder what this world has come to. I won't lie. I've gone out with people I've met over the Internet. I've only done it twice. The first time I brought a friend with me. It was just weird that first time...I was probably a sophomore in high school at the time. The second time I went alone and had an ok time...but it just was awkward and not right. The second one was a nice guy and we still stay in touch and are even friends on myspace...but after that I figured out I really needed to meet someone in real life first and get to know that person that way. But sometimes, if you're as shy as me, meeting people online is much easier because you can really talk and get to know each other. I honestly don't think I'd do it again though. In my opinion, relationships are much more fulfilling and have more substance if you meet someone in person and if you can surpass that first month or so of awkwardness, you can open up a little more and relax and it's just easier. Don't get me wrong either, some people meet their "soul-mates" (if there is such a thing) on the internet and end up marrying them and many actually stay together. Good for them...but when it comes to our children, shouldn't we be protecting them? Let me tell you a story...I was over at my aunts house last week and we were talking about myspace. One of my aunt's friends daughters used myspace and her parents weren't that thrilled about it, so they decided to block the site at the house. Good idea, right? Well...her daughter came home one day and told her mom that she got to use myspace at school...well obviously her mom was fumed. I was always under the impression, myspace was blocked at schools. I know this happejust ned awhile ago according to my aunt, so maybe they hadn't blocked it yet, but this is something that parents should have the absolute right of restricting to their kids. If my 13-year-old daughter (no I don't actually have one--it's just an example) came home one day and said all her friends were using myspace and she wanted to also, I would sit her down and explain why she couldn't and the consequences of using it. Parents don't seem to have the right amount of time to sit down with their children and talk to them about what could happen if they did certain things. I realize peer preasure is a much bigger influence then parents, but they might actually remember what you said at one point and respect what you said because believe it or not...kids want to have their parents proud of them... Let me know if you agree with my point of view and stay tuned for more rants coming soon...