Just Remember I Love You

Ok...so I've had a bad couple of weeks. Things have started to become a little better...but there are times lately where I just kind of feel like I'm alone. I just keep telling myself that things will get better. I know I have people around who love me...it's just I work so much that I don't get to see anyone that I love anymore. Ironically enough...on my way back to the station from an event I was covering a few nights ago, I heard a song that kind of hit home for me. It was on the station I work at...so I've played it before...but I guess the words never hit me as much as they did that night...and today it almost seems approprite after that deadly school shooting in Colorado today...anyway, the song was Firefall's "Just Remember I Love You." When it all goes crazy and the thrill is gone When the days get rainy and the nights get long When you get that feeling you were born to lose Starin' at your ceiling feelin' the blues Have you ever had that feeling that your life is spinning out of control? Ever just want to stay curled up in bed and let the world just pass you by for that one day? Ever wonder if your life really was worth anything? When there's so much trouble that you want to cry When your love has crumbled and you don't know why When your hopes are fading and they can't be found Dreams have left you waiting friends let you down Have you ever felt that everything around you wouldn't go your way? That the people you love really aren't there for you? Everything you used to dream just wasn't going to come true? Everything you've ever known that you wanted suddenly seems so far out of reach? Well just remember I love you And it'll be alright Just remember I love you All that I can say just remember I love you Maybe all your blues will fade away Know no matter where you are or what you're doing or how bad your life seems at the time, people are always there for you. People always love you. Someone out there is always thinking about you at some point in time. Maybe you need a lover and you're down so low And you start to wonder but you never know When it seems like sorrow is your only friend Knowing that tomorrow you'll feel this way again Ever had weeks of not feeling like you could escape? Just wanting to be with the people you love? Ever drown your sorrows in one way or another hoping the next day will be better then the last? When the blues come cryin' at the break of dawn When the rain keeps fallin' but the rainbow's gone When you feel like cryin' but the tears won't come Then your dreams are dyin' when you're on the run Ever feel like running away from everything but realize you have no where else to go? Ever stand in the rain so it would hide your tears and hurt? Just remember... Just remember I love you And it'll be alright Just remember I love you All that I can say just remember I love you Maybe all your blues will wash away No matter how hard a situation gets remember people love you. What is the point of doing something drastic to yourself or someone else? At least once during a day you cross the mind of another person. Doesn't mean you can't have your bad days...just means that everyone is loved. You may not know it...but you are. You just have to realize it.

Here Again

Today is pretty much just a day to get some poems off my chest...so read...enjoy...and figure out for yourself what they're about...

Missing You

My heart aches within from missing you,

My lips long for the feel of kissing you,

Right now all I need is to gently touch your skin,

To look into your eyes and see deep within,

Just one warm embrace,

Just to look upon your face,

Just one little touch,

From the one I love so much,

If I could gaze upon your smile,

For just a little while,

To know that you miss me too,

As I'm thinking of you,

To hear the sound of you breathe,

Knowing you'll never leave,

To see you walk up to me,

Then embrace you tenderly,

To just be with the one who's sent my heart reeling,

And brought about this downpour of emotion and feeling,

I sit here alone tonight,

And pray that somehow this all turns out right,

I've never been one to do more taking than giving,

I'm not well off but I work hard for a living,

I've told you many thoughts that weren't borrowed or bought,

And in lifetime, who would have thought,

That I have found someone who was just meant for me,

I can't explain the magic or why this should be,

But there is one thing that I know for certain,

That this just ain't over till one of us draws the final curtain,

For I've seen an angel and I want you to know,

If it's my choice to make, I'll never let you go,

Don't know what life holds, maybe there's no reason or rhyme,

To think you may be mine in a matter of time,

And though I cannot touch you and we are now apart,

My Love, you do dwell, so deep within my heart.

Long Distance Love

When it hurts so bad,

why does it feel so good?

I wish this all made sense,

I wish I understood.

Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,

but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.

You know how I feel about you,

and I know I want to spend my time with you,

but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.

Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,

but at the same time,

knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.

I just want this to be simple,

I just want you here with me,

to look into your eyes,

be held in your arms...then I'd truly be happy.

Right now this distance between us is out of our control,

but I'm still hoping one day soon,

I'll get what I'm wishing for.

A Sunday

So Sunday's are generally boring for me...I'm working most of them now...and it gets so boring at the station trying to figure out what to do. It gives me time to think...but today that's the last thing I want to do. I'll get into that after I explain the week I've had... Tuesday I had to work primaries for WIBX. That was actually exciting and I was live on IBX for the first time...I felt the same rush I do when I get ready to go on the air for Lite. Anyway, I worked mid-days on Tuesday first, then came back in at 9 and worked until midnight...which was kind of cool because I worked into my birthday which was Wednesday. Everyone wished me a Happy Birthday at midnight...so that moves me into my birthday. Had kind of a relaxing day...I opened my presents before I went back in to work...then I came home and had some cake...which was awesome. Thursday was stressful...on 4 hours of sleep I had to work 6-2 and then had to go back in at 4:30...needless to say I slept good after that day. Friday I was off and did some cleaning and stuff around the house that I had been meaning to do but hadn't had time to do. Back to working Lite yesterday, today, all next week and again next Saturday and Sunday. So that's going to be a busy week coming up. But that was generally my busy week in a nutshell...2 doubles last week...and on day 2 of a 20 day working stretch. And as I mentioned it's a Sunday. Sometimes I actually look forward to a Sunday. It's piece and quiet...away from everything...just have the music going in the background and a book to read, sometimes I do some thinking. Today, I want to stop thinking. No good can come from thinking today. I want to say I'm confused and that's why I'm thinking so much...but I don't think that is completely the truth. I guess first I should mention that I'm a very emotional person...I cry during movies all the time...some songs will make me cry if they remind me of an event or person. When I get upset with my parents...I don't get mad and slam doors...I cry...it's just a part of me. Well last night I laid in bed and thoughts started surrounding my head...but I was tired of enough that I was able to go to bed pretty quickly. This morning...woke up and played some of my Game Cube...then started thinking again...and some of things I was thinking started to upset me. I don't know what my problem is today. Maybe it's because I'm now 22 and I do wonder where my life is headed. I love my job...and not many people can say that about their jobs, but yeah I feel like I'm being used sometimes. Many people in broadcasting can vouch for that feeling. I love my boyfriend and am happy when I'm around him...and not many people can say that they get the feeling. Maybe I'm upset because I don't get to see him more often...leaving him becomes harder and harder...maybe I'm upset because a lot of the time...we only get to see each other when we're at work. Neither of us can afford to keep driving back and forth with gas prices the way they are. Maybe all of these things combined are starting to make me skeptical about what I really want. I wish I knew exactly what I wanted. One thing I know is I want to stop thinking. For the most part I'm happy with where my life is...I don't have a full time job, which is the one thing I'm lacking right now...but I have a few part time jobs that I really love doing...I just wish my mom would stop nagging me about getting something full time...right now I'm fine. I've been with my boyfriend for 6 months...and he's the one person that is able to keep me sane when I pull double or triple shifts. So you see...I'm happy for the most part with my life...so you wonder why I'm getting upset or doing all this thinking? I don't know...maybe it's because it's a Sunday and I have nothing else to do. No...that's not it...there's more to it...and that's what I'm hoping to figure out sometime this week...

9-11 We Will Never Forget

I would be remiss not to write a little on the five year anniversary of those fateful terrorist attacks of September 11, 2001. If you noticed, in the post previous to this...which I also posted today, I didn't mention anything about the attacks. There's a reason for that. I'm not saying we shouldn't remember and reflect on the day that changed America forever. For me, there's a reason that I want to try to put the day aside and not keep bringing it up. It puts a damper on my birthday every year. Maybe you think that's selfish of me, and maybe it is, but the entire week is generally dedicated to 9-11. I have always looked forward to my birthday...it's my Christmas. And ever since my senior year in high school...that changed. Don't think that I don't reflect on what happened five years ago. Today I had the privilege of going to a couple 9-11 related events...and they were moving to say the least. But bottom line is...I do remember what happened...and I still remember those who lost their lives fighting for our freedom. Now I will post the poem that I wrote 5 years ago about the terrorist attacks. It was published in a few local publications...and is my best poem to date...so sit back, read and reflect on what 9-11 means to you and all Americans!!

Who Am I Kimberly Dunne I am no one special. I’m the little boy that gives up his favorite teddy bear so that a stranger might be comforted. I’m the single mother who has been trying to teach her child to sleep in their own bed, who holds them tight long into the night, thanking God it wasn’t her child that died. I’m the old man, angry and resentful that his military doesn’t want him because of his age. I’m the teenage girl that spends hours cutting ribbons for others to wear as a symbol of remembrance. I’m the young man who doesn’t understand why his father was running up the stairs as the building fell, trying to save just one more person, instead of saving himself. I’m the old woman who will never see her grandchild again. I’m the little girl, playing with her doll, who can’t understand when someone screams hateful things at her because of where her family is from. I’m the police officer, trying to keep idiotic reporters safe, when his wife is still among the missing. I’m the fire fighter that called in sick that day, only to discover that someone else died in his place. I’m the man who survived the falling building only to learn that his sister and baby niece were in the plane. I’m the secretary, angered by the seemingly callous response of those around her. I’m a spelunker, who is climbing down into the remains of a building, hoping to find someone still alive. I’m the dog handler, searching for bodies, that has to comfort my animal when only death remains. I’m the woman who stands in line for five hours in order to give blood, hoping to help strangers in need. I’m the man who gets up and goes to work every day, in spite of the tragedy, because he still has a family to feed. I’m the first passenger to get back on a plane, even though I’m terrified, because I know somebody has to be first. Who am I? I’m nobody special. I’m just an American.

Weekend & stuff...

So I had a weekend off this past weekend...I don't remember the last time I had a full weekend off. Trust me I treasured this past weekend because I have a feeling it's not going to happen again anytime soon. Let me explain...I didn't get the full time position on Lite. They did however hire one of the other part-timers which was the next best thing. Therefore, he's been moved to full time and we're down a part-timer and now I'll be working every Saturday and Sunday for awhile I think...I don't completely mind...but when I don't have another day off during the week, or I just get Friday's off, it makes for a very long week...and not enough time for myself. Anyway, that's the main reason I treasured this past weekend...another reason would be I got to spend it with Rich and Terry. Now I'm spoiled and I know Saturday won't come fast enough. Now I have to go back to only seeing him once a week...and that took a toll on me last month when we went a week or two without seeing each other. Ugh...yeah I know...it sounds lame...but I'm in love and there's nothing else that can be done about that. So primaries are tomorrow...gonna be a VERY long day for me. I have to do mid-days on Lite and then I have to cover elections...I'll be at one of the candidates for Senate headquarters. I get to do live updates on the air...so I'll be nervous about that...but at the same time excited. It's actually kind of fun being out amongst all the action waiting to hear poll results hearing the low buzz of anticipation. It's really a rush...although I will be at the station until well after midnight I anticipate...and that runs into my birthday...which sucks for me...but trust me...EVERYONE will know it's my birthday when midnight rolls around...hehe... Which brings me to the subject of my birthday!! hehe...yeah 2 days...get me something good!! lol...I'll leave it at that for the time being...but don't let me have to hunt you down to get my gift :-)

Concert Pics

Ok...I finally had time to scan all the pics of the Carrie Underwood and Alan Griggs concert in...so I am putting the best ones up here...let me know what you think! Some of them really came out awesome!!